It's too soon to say whether I'll ever be able to sincerely believe Kierkegaard "subjectivity" (leap of faith). I'm still trying, despite the absurdity.
Tf when no gf is definitely a powerful force that plunges me into nihilistic despair and prevents true faith
Hopefully one day I'll be a real Knight of Faith TM
True you should never say never, but for me I simply can't imagine, beyond a genuine religious experience like a sober, provable, eye-witnessed communion with god himself, how anyone could turn around and say "yep, christianity makes sense and is the most likely truth, therefore I will follow its teachings".
Also, trust me, the feeling of nihilistic despair doesn't disappear when tfwnogf disappears. I have a wife and I still feel a crippling sense of absurd, nihilistic desperation, routed in a strong acceptance of hard determinism. My wife is christian and we talk about this kind of shit regularly, but her arguments for her beliefs just serve to solidify my own as the most reasonable.
Christianity does not make sense, nor should it. God is a transcendental and therefor incomprehensible entity; his religion would reflect that.
The thing about the absurd is that believing in God doesn't complicate an understanding of the world. God's will can never be known, nor his actions. Believing an ostensibly benevolent God is pulling the strings is not much that much different than believing life is a cosmological accident when it comes to leading my life. Science, secularism, "rationality" are all just as readily available- natural selection/scientific theories of the origin of the universe are not necessarily mutually exclusive with God.
At the very least, it allows me to suspend my disbelief so I can pretend to believe morality has an objective basis in reality to rationalize my pathos and actions.
And al least you don't fall asleep in an empty bed by yourself every night.