When did you realize you were a brainlet?

>When did you realize you were a brainlet?
When I have understood that my decision to go for the Ph.D. instead of going to the industry was retarded.

Wore tall rubber boots that went past the knees that were given to me. Try walking down steps for the first time. Smash head on concrete at age 3. Forget much of my past and find difficulty creating new memories and thinking. Sad drunk now at 23. Dad was always mad at me brcause he thought I was smarter and yelled which caused psychological problems. I'm a brainlet and I'm ok.

Lmao but I still got an A in precalculus calc and calc 2 in hs.

I dropped it once and failed it twice. I made it through the fourth time. The school has a requirement you pass 66 percent of your credit, which means you can fail about 1 class if your taking a lot of hours, which I was. I'm at a decent private school in the southeast, I just had a run of bad luck with family and work. Either way, like I mentioned, I'm killing it now. Made an A in 3/4/proofs and so far so good in modern. I only brought it up because some people choke super hard if they fail once or twice, I'm an example where it pays to push through

This is my "transcript" so far.

College Algebra - C (the room was fucking hot and I was dizzy. also didn't study as hard as I should have)
Matrices and Vectors (Basically Linear Algebra) - C+ Didn't study anything beyond cross products.
Calc I - B, don't know what went wrong. Probably careless mistakes?
Physics I - B+
Physics II - F first time
Calc II - B Didn't study taylor series
Discrete Math - F
Thermodynamics I - F
Literally didn't study those two subjects at all. I was going through a "depression" I guess.

That was my first year.

Second year
Calc III - A (first A. Really proud of myself)
Physics II - B
Thermodynamics I - B
Discrete Maths - C- Exam anxiety towards the end
Differential Equations - D+ I fucking don't know how I got a D+. I can fucking solve DEs for fucks sake. Was pretty pissed about my mark.

This semester
Circuit Analysis I
Digital Logic
Macroeconomics
Differential Equations

I hope to get my GPA to 3.2 when this term ends.

I'm pretty sure I'm a total dunce but I also know that I fucking hate physics, or engineering. I'm just in engineering because its the closest thing to maths. But I'm not too worried. I have anything but time. I'm sure one day things will work out for me. I'm still trying my best and trying to sort out my depression and it's gotten a lot better since last semester. The A in Calc III really gave me a morale boost because I proved to myself it is possible for me to get an A.

Note, I'm at a shit school where if you repeat the course, it uses the repeat score in the GPA but both courses show up on the transcript.

off yourself my man

working on it

>y, like I m
im doing pretty shit at school bcs of depression too.
kinda gay, hope I dont die or fail.

It's really common among smart kids to grow up underachievers, since we become used to chilling out before tests while our peers study hard to reach the same scores as us. This is why most high IQ teens perform worse in high school relative to their peers than in middle school.

The root of this problem is that the school system is designed for the average student and most "smart kids" don't fit that description, which is why I believe smart kids should move on to homeschooling after elementary school in order to keep up their fast learning rhythm.